Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Dayao 2012

Yea...guess many people having PODS(Post Dayao Syndrome??) recently. And many many peoples also post their feelings towards Dayao 2012, including the birdy seniors too..so so long time didn't see their blog updates but suddenly active back..haha. I wanna post something at here after Dayao every year but too lazy to write so freaky long stuff. So normally I just post some photos at here. Last year even none I guess? AHAHA

Yeaaaa, I admit I'm a person like to..errrrr.. '爱显'?? ahaha...but this time is the most low profile that I ever had. Seeing everyone having fun there, taking pictures after the event, post here post there, tag here tag there, bo jio here bo jio there...and I'm just looking at their updates silently. Could you imagine? A guy who having more than 25 pictures (haven't include backstage photos arr ><) in a performance event..this time only have less than 10 photos?? ahaha.. But anyway, 岁月不留人...It's their event and they are having new era in YLS. I'm suppose to be an audience this year(last year I still shout out loud that it's my last last last time at here...LOL). But everytime they asked for my help, I still come back to help them for their performance. Probably YLS is still my home at all, if not because of YLS and the seniors...I guess I'm just a normal student and can get first class honours as well..LOL. And of cuz, If not because my bandmates, I won't be a rocker and people won't be keep asking me whether I'm studying music or I'm an economist. Until now...it just happened last week, my previous coursemate asked me, 'I'm doubt that you are a music student or a master student..hmm' LOL..YEA! I'm an economist, but major MUSIC, minor Econs...so what?

Glad that the performance for this year is really great. I was so worry and doubt that whether they can make it success...thought that it could be a just unplugged performance after all. But what they have done, their ideas..really surprise me. And seeing them are so close and so cooperate together..makes me kinda jealous. Sometimes, I will think back...why I can't get better with the committees last time? Maybe with the knowledge and ability that we have, we can make it better? But anyway, we manage to change their concept towards making good music and performance..and it's getting better and better each year. This is the only thing we left to them. But hey....you guys are really really really GREAT!! Keep it up mannn =)

Hmm...bout how I feel this time. Na....I'm just a very very inactive participants this time. Wanna duduk diam diam and be an audience this year..but...still perform..ahhaha. Yea...I'm having dilemma whether wanna help them or not after I received Raymee's call during less than 1 month before the event. At first I keep rejecting him cuz I felt it's their event and they gotta solve it by themselves no matter what...if not they can't grow. And somemore, that SONG is not that EASY after all..aiks >< Asked my bandmates and SX bout' it. Bandmates quite supportive but SX just be neutral.. Yea...almost forgotten, get to know a very funny friend recently. She taught me something which called, 义气! Zau came to help us last year. So, I decided to contribute back. Since the song is partly composed by Yunfei and the vocalist is my Ah Sou...so..have to give them a help lar...hehe XD

About the song that I in charged and the jamming session? hmmmmm... Their first arrangement is really like a mess...and I have to follow Yunfei's idea to make it more alternative. Again...the following 2 weeks, I listen alternative until wanna vomit... But, I started to appreciate alternative music..no..suppose to be all of the music. Yea..especially Coldplay..really cool man. Facing few difficulties too, I know this time I will put up high expectation on this song. Nobody like this song at all after listened to the demo. Only me and Jocelyn still keep holding on. And I wanna prove their judgement wrong and I support Yunfei's Indie concept! Yea...I'm ambitious sometimes and still...'爱显'!! AHAHA!! Sometimes push too hard to the musicians...probably Raymee won't like me..ahaha. But in the end, I lower down my expectation because...I learned something throughout the jamming session and also after attended Faruq's workshop. Not everyone is perfect, the best is to discover their advantage and use them. And appreciate every music that you listen. Me and Jocelyn were so worry that nobody will accept alternative music but still....it turned out great in the end. And it got into newspaper article as well!!! Anyway, still got few people don't like it but...very subjective lar..ahaha. But in the end, Raymee started to like alternative music. Yup..and I learned to be humble as well. It's a good thing though.


My good friends in 'Band C'!! Middle one is my Ah Sou. Left one is Raymee. Both are talented..but the left still a bit lack of confidence I guess? (Hey, you are not bad after all..just need to be more confidence and be more expose to the world out there ya)


Noah, a really talented and most humble bassist who I've meet so far. His touching on bass is really great!!

This time is something really different for me and quite touching as well. First time leading a song without my bandmates. First time perform at here without my bandmates. First time perform total Indie song without my bandmates. But I still carry on their passion in music to the stage. ROCK NEVER DIES!! It's quite touching that Yunfei sms all the way from China on that event night. Yeaaa...suddenly came out a noob idea that night. We recorded down the crowd before we perform so that Yunfei can feel the warm from us. Saw Jocelyn tears dropped and hugged me. Raymee said thanks to me cuz gained a new lesson throughout the jamming. Noah told me he likes the song very much. And got the warm welcome from the crowd! Everything is WORTH! My heart is melted. Thanks to Yunfei believing in me (hey, but still I can't totally accept indie stuff lar..ahaha) Gained some good experience, and I know I gotta be humble cuz' there's always new things for me to learn no matter what kind of musicians that I mixed of.

My cool pose when performing 'Paper Boat'   


Recently read a blog from Yunfei. Suddenly wanna cry.... Realized that all these days, that's a lot of memorable stuff with my bandmates beside just YLS. We knew each other through YLS. We played together. We quarreled. Nearly to disband as well. But 3 of us still standing together. Thanks to Zau and Yunfei. Make my dream comes true to have a band. Maybe we are not as good as the bands out there. But we are improving from day by day. Looking back our first performance...feel like wanna laugh. But when looking back our performance during J-Rock no Tamashii 2, it's freaking AMAZING! Really miss the jamming session with you guys. We gotta move further for our band.... If you are planning to back from China, we will wait for you!

Like this photo a lot!! This is the fourth time we take photo together after Dayao! But one is the performer. Another one is an audience ><. Hey, hopefully next year we will be the audience together lar har..ahaha (Hey, you really like a big sister for me. And makes me stay at here..ahaha XD)

Alright...guess I'm writing too much! Anyway, YLS juniors and upcoming newbies...ALL THE BEST in the future!! This time is really the LAST LAST LAST time I performed here lar.. Let me have a chance to be audience as well larrrr ><


The last time that my band take picture together during Dayao 2011!!! One Inch Closer ROCKS!!!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

醒来后……

醒來后,你早就不在我的身邊
是我不懂,要怎麼去面對……
醒來後,我已經錯過了時間
要怎麼才能夠挽回,要怎麼才能夠挽回這一切……

The worst thing that can happen to a person is...you are lying to yourself that you are not alone, but the fact is..everytime when you wake up from your dream, you found out that you are alone actually. You've lost, got no direction and you don't know where should you go anymore. Whatever you did....it probably can't turn back anymore. It's the saddest moment that you are going through. From now on, please appreciate everyone around you..especially your love ones.

I remain silent all the while since that day..staying away from everything, doesn't mean I got no feeling at all. Wearing my poker face, pretend to be tough and...hide myself at the far far corner..cuz' I choose to keep everything to myself and...looking at you...silently. After everything we had gone through....do you think it's so easy to erase everything and start a new journey? =(

I wish....it could turn back to where we started.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Saturday, November 26, 2011

无缘

Sometime...really feel like god is playing with us...

Just knew...we were so close today....really really close!! Probably we were just few meters away..Same Time! Same place!

But.......the funny thing is.....

We didn't notice bout' it and we couldn't see each other...

It's the destiny...

'无缘' =(

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Last....and my true words..

Probably....this is the last post that I wanna post here. Found out that I posted lots of emo stuff here. Realize there are few people read my blog..and they were worry bout me. Shouldn't let them worry anymore. But...it's so hard to keep everything by myself. There's nobody that I can really talk to. Wanna talk and share with you but I don't get a chance to do so.....here is the last place that I can tell out my feelings and probably.....maybe to let you know =(

Recently lots of stuff happened....the things around us has changed and the people changed. Try to make it back as normal as we had before...but it won't back to what we used to have. But no matter how, I tried my best to love you, care you and appreciate you. I tried my best to show you how I care for you and how I think of you. I always wish that you are willingly to tell and share with me your problems. I might be not always on time for you but I really try my best to be there for you no matter how. I put effort on us...just to let you know I'm serious with our relationships. But the thing...it doesn't work out. The way I did most probably wrong....I couldn't bring you secure. I couldn't bring you trust. You choose to close the door for me. Suddenly I felt...I'm just like a stranger for you. I'm not the one that you used to love anymore.

You are the one who told me with 7 words, 'forever and always, I will love you'. And with this...I take this as my believe and my promise. I really work hard to build our future cuz I know...we are going to walk side by side for the journey in the future. No matter how hard the obstacles are...your hand is the only thing I wanna hold with. I never think that you are not good enough for me, maybe sometimes you treated me a little bit bad...but it doesn't matter...... Cuz' I know, from deep down of your heart, You are the one who love me the most and I really appreciate it. It's not that easy to find someone that you love and she loves you with her heart. That's why...not matter how harsh that you told me..I use all of my heart to save it back. I don't wish to complain anything...just the thing is...I felt like you not used to treat me like you have before. I'm worry and I'm scare of losing you. Probably some mistakes that I've done before makes you treat me like that but...everyone does has mistakes. Could you accept it if you love me? I don't expect anything from you...I just wish that you could care me like how sweet you did before. Just a little bit is enough to cheer my day =( I'm not complaining...I just wanna tell you the problem so that you would know.. If I really don't care of it and treat it like nothing...probably you are not that important in my heart anymore. But the fact is...I didn't do so...

Wish to meet you today and have a talk with you.....but you choose to turn down. Know you will be having test soon....so....after few days ba =(

Guess you might be reading it or not. But...Just to let you know...we are couples. Everything about you will related to me. We share every hard time and happiness together. What you did will affected me. How you feel will related to my feelings as well. If we really love each other...we shall love our hearts out...there's nothing to hide...and we trust on each other.

Probably...I'm not that good enough for you..and might not meet what you expected. The way I care you was wrong...and makes you feel that I'm so annoying. The promise I gave...only bring you disappointment. I don't deserve anything from you. From now on...you have all the freedom that you want to..without thinking of me. You have all the time you want to...without spending a single minute for me. You can do what you like..without caring how I feel. I don't mean anything for you anymore...I won't control you. Guess you will live better without me... It's the last and the true words that I wanna say and not gonna post at here anymore. I will keep everything with myself...




Still remember....it was the song playing when the first time I confessed to you. Hope that it could pamper me to sleep better tonight. It's been 3 nights continuously that I can't sleep already. God bless =)

Appreciate

After my bandmate had invited me for the 2nd time, I decided to follow him to City Harvest Church. When I reached there, listening the gospel songs....suddenly my heart feel so calm. The band not bad though, enjoyed the songs and the way they played.

The talks given by the pastor is quite interesting though...was sharing about relationships and marriage. Suddenly learn something new....relationships and marriage is not a try out...it's a journey and you have to try your best to maintain it. It just like a car, and you need to refuel or else it will run dry.

By the way, thanks to my bandmate and his girlfriend prayed for me with their heart. Know you both trying the best to cheer me up and...kinda touching. The tears rolling in my eyes when listening you both prayed. But....the things....just let the God to decide. However, sincerely...thanks to you both =)

Anyway, I'm still a Buddhism...haha.

God bless us...

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Not the one....

Perhaps....there's a thick wall between us..

Making effort to change myself, to care you more, to be considerate, to understand you more, to compromise...

But all you can think of....is just you and your stuff..

Perhaps, I'm not the one who is important for you anymore...

Monday, November 14, 2011

Something wanna tell~~

There's something really hard to understand... When I didn't inform you, you said I didn't inform you and not happy with it. When I'm telling you where I've been and inform you I'll be late, you are not happy with it also. Either I tell or not....still die. Do you think I really wanna back late? I do wish to back early too... Would you listen the reason I wanna give? Or you want me to make a lie to you???...which I don't want to. Have I really angry you before when you did the same?

I just wish that someone can listen to me and be my side...end up both being silent....

Dizzy....guess I'm not feeling well... Thought you will care me more...ended up just 1 sentence from you... Sometimes I really don't know.....am I still that important for you? Or am I just expecting too much from you? Or you really don't know how to express how much you care? Sometimes I pretend to be ok doesn't mean I'm really ok at all....I do need someone pamper me too =(

Ended up I pamper my own self to sleep...

*hopefully I will be recovered by tomorrow...god bless*


Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Negative!!

Lost, fear, doubtful.......negative!!

Recently really emo a lot...lots of stuff came into my mind, nearly wanna cry when I was alone. Thought I'm big boy enough to handle everything but I'm not that strong enough to face everything. Not young though....time pass very fast..really worry bout' my future. Wanna do lots of things but I can't see the light =(

Talked to my buddy..seems like different people were giving me different opinion. Don't know why...since when, I'm lost. I'm fear...of everything. Seeing everyone around me is like having a bright career and future....but I'm still in the same pace. Lost.. Fear... and doubtful... Why?? Am I too negative?

Really fell into the deep this time......god, I need guidance =((((

Thursday, November 3, 2011

from my heart........

So many things wanna tell. So many things wanna listen......but...sigh

something changed...but can't figure it out. suddenly so hard to for us to communicate.. try to make some effort for it....but seems like it didn't work well... Am I'm thinking too much sometimes? Have I done something wrong? Or...I'm not that good enough?

time to sleep and don't want to think anymore....

Sunday, October 16, 2011

JRock no Tamashii 2

Yes!!!! I know it's a bit late for me to post this....and I'll be performing with my band soon in just about less than 15 hours. Probably nobody will read my post in the middle of the night...LOL

Anyway, if you got nothing to do, just break up, nidda do some exercise, wanna be a mad dog on this boring Sunday, which is tomorrow, just come over to JRock no Tamashii 2 at 3pm. You can shout like nobody there, run like a mad dog or even keep shaking your head like you had pills. It's Rock gig and all the bands will be performing japanese and anime songs.

Actually, I've knew bout this gig since I was Form 6 and I keep telling myself for sure, I will get in there one day. And it finally dream come true. But on the other side, it would be the last time for my band to perform since my bassist is leaving to China this month. Temporary we don't have our future plan yet..kinda sad huh? Anyway, if you like Jrock or...you are one of our supporters. Please please please.....come and get high with me! This time...we are going to high till the MAX!


So...what are you waiting for?? come lar wei..for more info, please type Jrock Tamashii then you will find the details.

*It's a special moment for me, really hope that someone who is important for me can share this moment with me. You meant more than anyone else. If you were there, I would be really glad and excited but...guess you won't show up this time..suan le ba =( *

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

I just want a change!!

I just want a change! To have a better financial situation.
I just want a change! To have a better lifestyle.
I just want a change! To have a good behavior.
I just want a change! To have a strong mindset.
I just want a change! To become a good leader.
I just want a change! To be an outstanding person.
I just want a change! To get closer to my dream.
I just want a change! To impress and motivate people around me.

And~~~~
I just want a change! To prove everyone that what I've said is not a JOKE!

To my friend,
I might be very weak now. I might be very down sometimes. I might be not smart enough or not flexible enough. I might be can't click with you most of the time. You probably might look down on me...thinking I'm an ego person or what. But honestly, I just want to improve everything. I'm really scare to look backwards again. I'm willingly to learn to everything. I try to be positive everyday. I try to be more responsibility. I try to be more hardworking when you are lazy. I'm willingly to accept every critics and slowly improve. I just wanna be a better person. I wake up early every morning and attend the meeting no matter what.....just to let you know, 'We NEED a CHANGE'. As we promise to our leader before.

I just want to achieve the vision together. And we are partner. You might not be my leader anymore but I do treat you as one of my best friends (although I don't follow your living style). You are the one who bring me to here and I do sincerely treat you as my partner. Why you will hate me sometimes?? I never hate you before....just disappointed sometimes when you behave as previous. Still remember how you said that you wanna change? I believe what you've said and wish that we could achieve together. It's so simple. I know you will run off sometimes...so I set myself as a role model to prove to you that we still can walk along to overcome every obstacles. Why you will think I'm Lan 9 7 you?

I know I might be negative sometimes and I don't know the way to talk. But I really try hard to learn it and improve it. I just being honest with true friends. If you are not my true friends, I don't even wanna care. But still....I will improve my weakness. So, next time you will feel better when I give comment to you.

Bro....have you reflect yourself?

I just want a change. And we can achieve it together. THAT'S ALL....

Sunday, September 18, 2011

What am I thinking.....?

Guess I've been thinking a lot lately....worry, worry and worry =( lots of negative thinking in my mind.. Tried to make myself happy a bit. Watch TV, play games, hang out with my gang but....still the same.. What happen to me? Anyone can tell? Am I having depression??

Wish I know what I'm thinking....everything will be fine =x


God bless~ =)

Friday, August 19, 2011

You'll never know~~

so many many many things that I wanna tell ya....

I wish that you can understand my situation
I wish that you can understand how hard is my job
I wish that you are the only one who support me when I'm down
No matter how my parents disagree with what I'm doing...
even if only you just one, already enough to make me have the courage to go on further
I wish that you are the one who pamper me back when I'm sad
I wish that you can trust me more
I wish that you know I'm working hard to have a better future for us
I wish that you know...you are the only motivator for me to drive on
I wish that you can control your temper sometimes
I wish that you can talk to me
I wish that you know how much I miss you when you not around
I wish that
I wish that.......






I wish that
you know how much....
I love you
and....
it never change.


but guess....you'll never know~~

Thursday, June 16, 2011

WEAK!!!!

just left bout' 7 days to the financial closing....I'm still the same, can't produce anything. Seeing all the people around me has qualify for the convention trip...but I'm still at the same pace. I know....I can't blame for everything...but I'm really scare....lack of energy and lack of confidence. I'm just too weak. wanna find someone to talk to....but nobody there. Thinking to talk to you.......but haiz....having war again~~~

*end up.....crying alone~~~*

No matter what...I must not give up!!!!! 7 days left...

Monday, June 13, 2011

A Happy Day

Was really really excited today. Get to see my honey this evening. It's been around 1 month that I didn't see her. She's at the hometown for this long long long semester break while I was busy working and preparing the gig which held last night. She came back to KL last night cuz' was having an external paper exam this afternoon. I knew, she's been so hardworking for the exam and finally.....she PASSED!! hooray =)

Although just manage to meet you up for less than 2 hours =( but.....you do made my day^^ Will come to visit you for next 2 weeks le....keke.

Anyway, will update bout' my performance at the SUKMA 2011 once I got the photos. I came out a side project, 'Jack In The Box'. Stay tune =)

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Gig at SUKMA 2011 Closing Ceremony

hey guys....I'm going to perform at SUKMA 2011 Closing Ceremony tonight with my new side project, "JACK In The Box". Location will be at Mini Stadium Majlis Sukan Negara Malaysia, Bukit Jalil. It just located beside the Bukit Jalil National Stadium. Anyway...although it's not the national stadium..but it still looks huge for me. I went to there for sound check yesterday and I was stunt!! OMG...its like having a mini concert...and we are the only guest performance for live band.

So...we will be performing 7 songs tonight. The list are:
1. Mimpi yang sempurna - Peterpan
2. Just Dance - Lady Gaga
3. Always be my baby - David Cook
4. Monsoon - Tokio Hotel
5. Time is running out - Muse
6. Demi Cinta - Kerispatih
7. Without you - Own composed song

Alright...so these are the details:
time: 7.30pm
entrace: FREE!!!
venue: Mini Stadium Majlis Sukan Negara Malaysia, Bukit Jalil

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so what are you waiting for??

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

I'm Sick


argh..I'm sick again. Sore throat...my voice gone!! Can I recover within this 2 weeks? My next performance is coming soon. Some more I gotta do a recording on next Tuesday =(

My right eyes...swollen again...don't know why. This is the 2nd time. Hopefully is not serious =(

wish myself can recover faster. *praying*

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

When A Rocker Meets An Angel =)

This is a story bout' how a rocker meets an angel...

One day,
a rocker went into the library....
He saw a girl who looks familiar in front of him.
They passed by and gave a glance on each other.
Something funny is, actually the rocker turned back..
And looked at her again....
But the girl never notice bout' it..till now I guess >.<

Later on..
the rocker found out that the girl added him earlier in Facebook.
The rocker took the first step,
And they both became friends since then....
The girl is pretty, cute, caring..
of cuz'..she is as shy as other girls too
But...
the most important is
The rocker found his way home when he looks into her eyes.
She's like the sun,
which gonna break the dawn,
gives him the energy to live on every day.
She's like the moon,
which shinning brightly in the night,
shows him the light whenever he is in the dark.
She's like the shooting star,
shinning brightly in the velvet sky,
Bringing him the joy and happiest moment.
She's just like..
an Angel for him,
always be the first one to give him,
courage and caring.
It's so touching,
melted his heart...

After
don't know how many months..
The rocker fell in love with the angel,
and the angel fell in love with him too..
and then....
They hold their hands...
Started their very own new chapter..
together.

end


Of course..the ROCKER is me >< yea...the story may sounds like very old or not interesting but..it's my true story^^. We started bout' 3 months++ ago. I felt really happy when I'm with her. When I'm with her, I feel like I was surrounded by the comfort...it's something hard to describe with words. I like the moment when the first thing that I look at her morning sms greeting once I wake up in the morning. I enjoy the moment when she messaged me every night before she is going to sleep. I like the moment when she reminds me to have my lunch and dinner earlier everyday. She is so cute sometimes..and makes me think of her everyday. She will give me a sudden message when I think of her^^ She just like my angel, send from up above and show me the love <3

Karyee and myself!
(like this photo the most..was taken while we were eating during Zau's bday celebration)

Yup...so the angel that I was talking about is the girl in the picture ><

Honey..although we just started not long ago but..I glad that I've found you in my life. Thanks for your caring and be the one who support me always. I enjoy the moment when I was staring at your face. Every time I look into your eyes, I see our future in an instant. I think I've found my way home. I know that it might sound more than a little crazy but...I do believe, I knew I loved you before I met you and I think, I dreamed you into my life. Maybe I'm too noob sometimes, and we quarrel alot >.<. But I do believe, things will get better. I wish that you could be the one that I'm gonna spend my life with. I wanna love you with every breath that I have.

Heart you honey...thanks =)



She's my senior...she's my friend

Rachel...a really funny and gila sense girl ><. She's my 大家姐 in YLS (actually her has the same age as me ><). She's a good singer and I like her voice since the first time I watch her performance. Still remembered the first time I know her...she always has the serious face and seldom talk to me but...in the end, found out that she just as bird as I am..LOL. Anyway, thanks to you that guiding me along my days in YLS. Enjoy the moment when we performed together. Glad that I can write a song for you. Hey, do you know..you look like Amy Lee from the Evanescence for me? That's why I wrote 'the knight' for you last year. Maybe we can form a band like Evanescence next time? haha..

Found out some photos that we took since my first year. Just realized that we have all grown up. Hope that we can have more chances to perform together next time. Thanks Rachel =)


大摇 2009 (when we still young)


大摇 2010 (half way to become old bird)


大摇 2011 (we are old bird now...LOL)



*Hey Rachel, wanna jam this song together?? haha