Not the one....

Perhaps....there's a thick wall between us..

Making effort to change myself, to care you more, to be considerate, to understand you more, to compromise...

But all you can think of....is just you and your stuff..

Perhaps, I'm not the one who is important for you anymore...

Something wanna tell~~

There's something really hard to understand... When I didn't inform you, you said I didn't inform you and not happy with it. When I'm telling you where I've been and inform you I'll be late, you are not happy with it also. Either I tell or not....still die. Do you think I really wanna back late? I do wish to back early too... Would you listen the reason I wanna give? Or you want me to make a lie to you???...which I don't want to. Have I really angry you before when you did the same?

I just wish that someone can listen to me and be my side...end up both being silent....

Dizzy....guess I'm not feeling well... Thought you will care me more...ended up just 1 sentence from you... Sometimes I really don't know.....am I still that important for you? Or am I just expecting too much from you? Or you really don't know how to express how much you care? Sometimes I pretend to be ok doesn't mean I'm really ok at all....I do need someone pamper me too =(

Ended up I pamper my own self to sleep...

*hopefully I will be recovered by tomorrow...god bless*

Negative!!

Lost, fear, doubtful.......negative!!

Recently really emo a lot...lots of stuff came into my mind, nearly wanna cry when I was alone. Thought I'm big boy enough to handle everything but I'm not that strong enough to face everything. Not young though....time pass very fast..really worry bout' my future. Wanna do lots of things but I can't see the light =(

Talked to my buddy..seems like different people were giving me different opinion. Don't know why...since when, I'm lost. I'm fear...of everything. Seeing everyone around me is like having a bright career and future....but I'm still in the same pace. Lost.. Fear... and doubtful... Why?? Am I too negative?

Really fell into the deep this time......god, I need guidance =((((

from my heart........

So many things wanna tell. So many things wanna listen......but...sigh

something changed...but can't figure it out. suddenly so hard to for us to communicate.. try to make some effort for it....but seems like it didn't work well... Am I'm thinking too much sometimes? Have I done something wrong? Or...I'm not that good enough?

time to sleep and don't want to think anymore....

JRock no Tamashii 2

Yes!!!! I know it's a bit late for me to post this....and I'll be performing with my band soon in just about less than 15 hours. Probably nobody will read my post in the middle of the night...LOL

Anyway, if you got nothing to do, just break up, nidda do some exercise, wanna be a mad dog on this boring Sunday, which is tomorrow, just come over to JRock no Tamashii 2 at 3pm. You can shout like nobody there, run like a mad dog or even keep shaking your head like you had pills. It's Rock gig and all the bands will be performing japanese and anime songs.

Actually, I've knew bout this gig since I was Form 6 and I keep telling myself for sure, I will get in there one day. And it finally dream come true. But on the other side, it would be the last time for my band to perform since my bassist is leaving to China this month. Temporary we don't have our future plan yet..kinda sad huh? Anyway, if you like Jrock or...you are one of our supporters. Please please please.....come and get high with me! This time...we are going to high till the MAX!

So...what are you waiting for?? come lar wei..for more info, please type Jrock Tamashii then you will find the details.

*It's a special moment for me, really hope that someone who is important for me can share this moment with me. You meant more than anyone else. If you were there, I would be really glad and excited but...guess you won't show up this time..suan le ba =( *