I just want a change!!

I just want a change! To have a better financial situation.
I just want a change! To have a better lifestyle.
I just want a change! To have a good behavior.
I just want a change! To have a strong mindset.
I just want a change! To become a good leader.
I just want a change! To be an outstanding person.
I just want a change! To get closer to my dream.
I just want a change! To impress and motivate people around me.

And~~~~
I just want a change! To prove everyone that what I've said is not a JOKE!

To my friend,
I might be very weak now. I might be very down sometimes. I might be not smart enough or not flexible enough. I might be can't click with you most of the time. You probably might look down on me...thinking I'm an ego person or what. But honestly, I just want to improve everything. I'm really scare to look backwards again. I'm willingly to learn to everything. I try to be positive everyday. I try to be more responsibility. I try to be more hardworking when you are lazy. I'm willingly to accept every critics and slowly improve. I just wanna be a better person. I wake up early every morning and attend the meeting no matter what.....just to let you know, 'We NEED a CHANGE'. As we promise to our leader before.

I just want to achieve the vision together. And we are partner. You might not be my leader anymore but I do treat you as one of my best friends (although I don't follow your living style). You are the one who bring me to here and I do sincerely treat you as my partner. Why you will hate me sometimes?? I never hate you before....just disappointed sometimes when you behave as previous. Still remember how you said that you wanna change? I believe what you've said and wish that we could achieve together. It's so simple. I know you will run off sometimes...so I set myself as a role model to prove to you that we still can walk along to overcome every obstacles. Why you will think I'm Lan 9 7 you?

I know I might be negative sometimes and I don't know the way to talk. But I really try hard to learn it and improve it. I just being honest with true friends. If you are not my true friends, I don't even wanna care. But still....I will improve my weakness. So, next time you will feel better when I give comment to you.

Bro....have you reflect yourself?

I just want a change. And we can achieve it together. THAT'S ALL....

What am I thinking.....?

Guess I've been thinking a lot lately....worry, worry and worry =( lots of negative thinking in my mind.. Tried to make myself happy a bit. Watch TV, play games, hang out with my gang but....still the same.. What happen to me? Anyone can tell? Am I having depression??

Wish I know what I'm thinking....everything will be fine =x


God bless~ =)

You'll never know~~

so many many many things that I wanna tell ya....

I wish that you can understand my situation
I wish that you can understand how hard is my job
I wish that you are the only one who support me when I'm down
No matter how my parents disagree with what I'm doing...
even if only you just one, already enough to make me have the courage to go on further
I wish that you are the one who pamper me back when I'm sad
I wish that you can trust me more
I wish that you know I'm working hard to have a better future for us
I wish that you know...you are the only motivator for me to drive on
I wish that you can control your temper sometimes
I wish that you can talk to me
I wish that you know how much I miss you when you not around
I wish that
I wish that.......






I wish that
you know how much....
I love you
and....
it never change.

but guess....you'll never know~~

WEAK!!!!

just left bout' 7 days to the financial closing....I'm still the same, can't produce anything. Seeing all the people around me has qualify for the convention trip...but I'm still at the same pace. I know....I can't blame for everything...but I'm really scare....lack of energy and lack of confidence. I'm just too weak. wanna find someone to talk to....but nobody there. Thinking to talk to you.......but haiz....having war again~~~

*end up.....crying alone~~~*

No matter what...I must not give up!!!!! 7 days left...

A Happy Day

Was really really excited today. Get to see my honey this evening. It's been around 1 month that I didn't see her. She's at the hometown for this long long long semester break while I was busy working and preparing the gig which held last night. She came back to KL last night cuz' was having an external paper exam this afternoon. I knew, she's been so hardworking for the exam and finally.....she PASSED!! hooray =)

Although just manage to meet you up for less than 2 hours =( but.....you do made my day^^ Will come to visit you for next 2 weeks le....keke.

Anyway, will update bout' my performance at the SUKMA 2011 once I got the photos. I came out a side project, 'Jack In The Box'. Stay tune =)